detox

I want to run away. I want to go to a place so far from here and never go back…
Why don’t I?


The lady behind the spa’s counter asked me to choose an oil, pointing to the cardboard menu in front of me.

- therapeutic
- rejuvenating
- refreshing
- energizing
- anti stress

I wanted to ask her if they had an “enlightening” oil. I sure as hell could use a little enlightenment in my life right now, I thought.

So in my pursuit of enlightenment, I chose the Anti Stress oil. It was tall order that I get a massage or get out of town last weekend, or do something to calm my nerves and clear my mind. I knew that staying home watching TV the whole day was not going to be enough. I planned to go somewhere peaceful and quiet but I was running a fever, so traveling was out of the question. I needed to get this out of my system so I can move on and start doing the things I have to do…which, as of last count, were plenty.

I think I heard it from that movie, “crash”, that we miss the sense of touch so much that we crash into each other, just to we can feel something.

Hazel was a blessing. Her soft hands gliding though my oiled skin made me aware of every muscle, every curve, and every detail in my body. Every stroke forced my tired muscles to rest… giving just enough pressure, not too much that it hurt, and not too little that I didn’t feel anything… it wasn’t enlightening, but it felt so good, I didn’t mind being a mess.

If you suddenly feel the need to be held, to have someone’s weight press your body against a bed, have someone pay attention to every detail of your body… if you suddenly need to feel someone hold you like she meant it, or if you just need a break… a rest from everything but for some reason you can’t get away… or maybe if you need a little enlightenment… do what I did:

1. chose an oil
2. take your clothes off
3. and close your eyes.