poker

I’ll be here, if you need anything. But you never need anything.

-logan

i want a guy who likes to beat the crap out of a guy who happens to look at me the wrong way. I want a guy who takes pleasure in hitting someone, well, as long as it’s not me. I want a guy who likes taking care of me. Someone who dominates a relationship. Tall, strong, someone who takes charge. Someone who doesn’t sit and wait in the sidelines. Someone who thinks I am an important part of his life, and finds urgency in being with me.

But that’s just what I want.

In reality, I’m in love with the biggest gutless jerk who can’t even dominate a cat if his life depended on it. I’m in love with a defensive commitment phobic; a pacifist who likes finding fault in me and refuses to see the good. I’m in love with a selfish ass who doesn’t take risks; who keeps me around coz he’s scared he’ll lose me forever. And doesn’t even exert effort to know if he wants to keep me forever or not.

so, why am laying all my cards and blindly going all out for his moron? Because at the end of the day, all I need is the love he gave. It’s all I need for another day…

aint life grand?

And I know, I watch too much tv.