she's gone to the movies

There’s this song that I heard from the TV show “felicity” years ago that I really liked. I tried so find the song but those days it wasn’t so easy to find a song especially if you don’t know the title or the artist. So it just kinda slipped my mind. I think that song played (I’m not really sure) when Felicity finally jumped in the pool with Ben. If you know what I mean…



Then, probably 8 years later, it suddenly pops up on my iPod shuffle. Isn’t it amazing when things like that happen?



I am such lousy company these days, even I wouldn’t want to hang out with me. And for that, I apologize. I’ve just been really really tired. So many shit to take care of, it’s crazy. I guess this is what happens when you sleep all day for a month, huh? Ahh… makes me want to crawl back to bed and sleep for a month. Again.



Anyway, I am going to the spa later. And I’m getting the ultimate supreme feel good package. Kinda feel a bit guilty. But with the week I’ve had… I think it just about evens the field.



NP : she’s gone to the movies : semisonic



Now the rain comes down the windows and it

Drops onto the forehead of the waiting boy

He surveys his rental kingdom and he

Wonders if he's really lost his one joy

Another fool would go down to the

Only place she ever went to lose herself

She's gone to the movies now and she

Don't need your help

She's gone to the movies now and she's

Not coming home

She's gone to the movies now and she's

Not coming back

straight up

I have to stop signing job offers if I don’t intend to actually get the job. At the rate I am going, I will be blacklisted from these companies and will probably regret it when and if the time comes that I am serious about working for them.



Anyway… I think I will be working for my previous company and I think work will start on Monday. I’m just not so sure yet and I’m still looking around.



In an effort to get my ass off my warm bed, M forced me to go with her yesterday. She is not the kind of person you reason with, because believe me, it is futile. So I went with her. Strange thing is that she gives really good relationship advice. Strange because she doesn’t come across as someone well versed in matters of the (broken) heart. And she always starts with … “ if you ask me” or “if you want my opinion…” which I find really amusing because with her, you really don’t have a choice. :)



We were supposed to get our social security ID’s but the capture machine wasn’t working… so we went to the mall and waited for her scheduled interview. I didn’t plan on applying at that company yet. But, I didn’t feel like going home so I gave my resume… and well… how do you answer the question, “what assurance do we have that this time, you’re not wasting our time again?” when you know that you are wasting their time, again? Hmmm…



My last shred of hope to keep tascha fell apart last night. I will miss her. She truly is my baby. Over the course of two weeks, I’m afraid that much like me, she has also learned to silently cry herself to sleep.



Well, right now, my only concern is if I should drink this chilled strawberry wine straight from the bottle or if I should get out of bed to get that giant goblet.

now, that channing tatum? one.hot.dude.

All things considered, I have an extended/special/deluxe now playing edition:



there is no if : the cure

"if you die" you said "so do i" you said...

And it starts the day you make the sign

"tell me I'm forever yours and you're forever mine

Forever mine... "



Remember the last time I told you I love you -

It was warm and safe in our perfect world –



"if you die" you said "so do i" you said

But it ends the day you understand

There is no if... just and

There is no if... just and

There is no if..."



going to california : led zeppelin

“I think I might be sinking.

Throw me a line if I reach it in time

I’ll meet you up there where the path

Runs straight and high.

To find a queen without a king;

They say she plays guitar and cries and sings.”



it doesn’t have to be that way : jim croce

“And the Christmas carols sound like blues,

But the choir is not to blame.

But it doesn't have to be that way.

What we had should never have ended.”



stop crying your heart out : oasis

“Cos all of the stars are fading away

Just try not to worry you'll see them some day

Take what you need and be on your way

And stop crying your heart out

Get up... Come on... why you scared

You'll never change what been and gone”



two star : everything but the girl

“So it's not for me to say,

because I change my mind from day to day,

and when I look at you

I only see bits of myself anyway.

So go on, and stop listening to me.

Stop lisening to me.

And don't ask me what to say,

or to judge a life this way

when my own's in disarray.”



every grain of sand : bob dylan

“I hear the ancient footsteps like the motion of the sea

Sometimes I turn, there's someone there, other times it's only me.

I am hanging in the balance of the reality of man

Like every sparrow falling, like every grain of sand.”





flowers in december : mazzy star

"Before I let you down again

I just want to see you in your eyes

I would have taken everything out on you

I only thought you could understand



They say everyman goes blind in his heart

And they say everybody steals somebody's heart away

And I got nothing more to say about it

Nothing more than you would me



Send me your flowers, of your december

Send me your dreams, of your candy wine

I got just one thing I cant give you

Just one more thing of mine



They say everyman goes blind in his heart

They say everybody steals somebodys heart away

And Ive been wondering why you let me down

And I been taking it all for granted."



oh, fuck.