what do i miss?

i miss everything. every little thing. every tiny bit. everything.

but i’m tired of missing things...

i’m so sorry. i can’t do this anymore.
and in case you don’t know, you are not helping to make things better.

i’m just not built this way. i thought i can do this. and i tried, God knows i tried… for more than a year now, i've been trying... and i can't go on anymore. not like this.

you have to understand... i can't second guess my whole life.

i have to leave now. because it hurts so much to stay and wait and be fooled. over and over again.

you never tell me anything. you never let me in.