wake up, it's time

I remember that huge earthquake we had in 1990, it was july 16… I was sitting on my bed when my 11 year old world shook. i thought chico, my half german shepherd-half dobber man puppy, was underneath the bed, shaking it. but when I looked up, I saw the walls sway and everthing else move… so I ran outside.

My mom and my nanny where running around looking for me when I sat on the swing and pushed myself as hard as I could. I thought the pavement would open up and swallow me and my mom and our house. I was so scared I didn’t want to get off the swing until the earthquake stopped. I didn’t want to feel the earthquake that would swallow everything I loved.

I guess this time I have to step out of the swing, huh? At least that’s what A told me. I haven’t seen him in a long time. God I miss him, I miss how he took care of me… just took care of me, selflessly. We talked about life… not relationships and all that crap… we talked about life… my life… what my plans are. before I talked to him, I was just a mess… my plans were a mangle of half meant strategies, half meant intentions, half meant goals. Now, i guess it’s a bit clearer… I guess, at least now, I can trace a path amidst all the lines.

I don’t expect things to be easy… but I’m looking forward to this. Time to get out of my comfort zone and step into the unknown… I just hope that in the process, I don’t loose sight of who I am and what’s really important in my life.

Skin and bones is one of the nicest albums I’ve heard in a long time. Damn you, dave grohl.

sweet and divine

Razor

by Foo Fighters
album: In Your Honor (2005), Skin and Bones (2006)

Wake up, it's time
We need to find a better place to hide
Make up your mind
I need to know, I need to know tonight

Sweet and divine, razor of mine
Sweet and divine, razor blade shine

Patience, my dear,
We could spend a lifetime waiting here
Maybe this time,
I hope I get the chance to say goodbye

Sweet and divine, razor of mine
Sweet and divine, razor blade shine

Day after day, cuttin' away
Day after day, but anyway

Wake up, it's time
We need to find a better place to hide
Wake up your mind
I need to know, I need to know tonight

Sweet and divine, razor of mine
Sweet and divine, razor blade shine.