what moon songs do you sing?

have you ever seen yourself while you’re in a lobby of an office? just sitting there. waiting. i saw my reflection earlier. i was waiting for someone from hr when i saw my reflection through the glass doors. and i saw myself probably how X saw me all along… i looked, well…. not just sad… but lonely. and it’s not the mundane loneliness you see everyday, it was so callous and unhindered that it was so painful to look at, even for me.

if i didn’t know me, i’d think i had surrendered to a bitter fate and was just so… i don’t know… resigned. resigned from happiness. resigned from life.

this reminded me of that song by the smashing pumpkins that x sent me a lot of months ago, he said the song made him think of me.


luna.

what moon songs
do you sing your babies?
what sunshine
do you bring?

who belongs
who decides whos crazy
who rights wrongs
where others cling

i'll sing for you
if you want me to
i'll give to you
and its a chance
i'll have to take
and its a chance
i'll have to break

i go along
just because
i'm lazy
i go along
to be with you

and those moon songs
that you sing your babies
will be the songs
to see you thru

i'll hear your song
if you want me to
i'll sing along
and its a chance
i'll have to take
and its a chance
i'll have to break
i'm in love with you
i'm in love with you
i'm in love with you
i'm so inlove with you...

but the thing is, i wasn’t sad… i was okay. i was hopeful. i was a brand new sky.