high

~ the speaks

Will it ever be?
I’ve tried so hard to find sweet serenity
Are you still afraid?
Just close your eyes and dream, and feel it fade away.

Time won’t flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away
And dreams won’t die, with tears in our eyes
You’ve got to hold your head up high…

It’s taken some time,
And I’ve given up the will to change your state of mind
Try and understand,
It’s not so hard to see that I am just a man.

Time won’t flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away
And dreams won’t die, with tears in our eyes
You’ve got to hold your head up high…

Will it ever be?
I’ve tried so hard to find sweet serenity
Try and understand,
It’s not so hard to see that I am just a man.

Time won’t flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away
And dreams won’t die, with tears in our eyes
You’ve got to hold your head up high…

i searched the web for the lyrics of this song, curious as to how they would spell out the “ye-he-yehey” part. Most of the lyrics i found ignored it altogether but some transcribed it as “yeah, yeah, yeah” and interestingly enough, one site spelled it as “ye… yey”. as i browsed, i read this comment about the song..

“Forgive and forget…it could be the imperfections of the guy but what hit home is it can be construed in a situation wherein a boyfriend or a husband wandered away from the relationship then finally realized that it is their original girl or wife that they really love and is trying to find ways to ease the pain they have caused.”

i was intrigued. hmm… never really paid attention to the song except for the part where the vocalist says “ye-he-yehey”. the song was playing last night at the gym when i accidentally punched my trainer’s ear. now, after reading the lyrics… i guess it takes on a new meaning.

come to think of it, if led zep can pump me up for a workout. mushy songs can do twice as much. and i mean the really mushy, tacky break up songs, like the ones martin nievera and regine velasquez revive. you know, songs like one last cry and heaven knows. those kind of songs. yesterday, with “hard habit to break” playing in the background, i felt like i had enough energy to punch the daylights out of my trainer for hours. he had to take pain killers to dull the impact of each blow.

that’s why i love working out so much, you can take out your frustrations on a bag filled with sand or on your naughty trainer.

i almost fainted yesterday. i really should try to get more rest. and i should eat something a few hours before working out. i almost fainted just after doing my laps then i remembered that i only had one meal the entire day. it would have been so embarrassing if i did.

i have to come up with something. i barely sleep, even with wine and prescription medicine… i need to rest, but i have to lose weight too. it’s almost time to go to hongkong. and soon, it’ll be time for boracay. i need to power through this. mind over matter. mind over heart.

oh, and today’s the day. moment of truth, I. this is it. moment of truth.

moment of truth, now that’s a workout song. hehe.